change!!

Assalamualaikum n hye..

I know that it had been a very long time since my last post..What can I do..to busy being a student..Actually,,I do really want to share a lot of things but I take them as simole as I can because if you want me to share everything,,it gonna take half of your day to read the..haha..just kidding..

Actually,,(actually lagi..haha)
I am on my way to better change..Do you get what I mean??oukay..this is the most story that I want to share..If you know me before this.."Aflah yang tudung singkat tu..Aflah yang garang tu..aflah yang selalu cakap dengan lelaki tu..Aflah yang tu..Aflah yang nie" and so on..But now..that old Aflah is going to change..What do you mean by that Aflah????Oukay,,chill my friends..Let me share you what makes me want to change and how do I change..

First of all,,as you already know,,I am from boarding school that most known as TESMAL..(miss Tesmal right  now)..oukay enough Aflah,,back to the story..In my school,,it had been what we called as USRAH or BULATAN GEMBIRA or HALAQAH and so on..I had been chosen as NAQIBAH or simple say ELDER SISTER in the small group of USRAH..I had being exposed with ISLAMIC CULTURE likes TILAWAH,,HAFAZAN n so on..But,,I don't take it serious..I just attend that activity because my school ruled that..So I just follow the flow..But,,I got a lot of benefits that I never realise that I had them..Firstly,,a very good and best friends..They touch my heart with Islam..Thank you my friends..Secondly,a great teacher or we called as USTAZAH..They did not force me to wear hand socks,,socks n so on..But they attracted me to wear them..Feeling blessful..

Then,,I continue my study in PASUM..On the first day of PASUM,,there were two sisters from Faculty of Dentistry named kak Naza and kak Nadzira if i'm not mistaken..They asked me and my roommate,,Nuril Hannani to join HALAQAH..The first thing that I had been exposed in PASUM..I thought that there will be no Islamic activity anymore in University Of Malaya because UM is most known as social university..I'm looking down on my own university but most people I asked about UM,,that will be the answer..Oukay,,continue story..then,,while unpacked all my things,,I thought whether I should join this HALAQAH or not..After a while,,I decided to make a try..Subhanallah..It caught my heart..I don't know why my heart and soul felt very calm, after attended that HALAQAH..I said to myself that I want to attend it once again..The HALAQAH is held once a week..Before the upcoming HALAQAH,,I felt so lazy to do what we called as MUTABAAH or to be simple the thing or lists that you can do to increase your pahala..One day before the HALAQAH,,I felt soooooo and toooo lazy to go that HALAQAH..haha..thats why,, "Iman adakalanya naik dan turun"..On that time was such the worst time when I just felt like to shut off my phone so that the sisters could not contact me..Astaghfrullah..What a bad me..

It had been more than 6 months I had been TARBIYAH via HALAQAH..Alhamdulillah,,I feel peace..I feel safe in this HALAQAH..Oukay,,now to the Climax..
One fine day,,on Tuesday if I'm not mistaken,,my friend,,Hidayah wearing a very Tudung Labuh  which I had in my room..My mother gave them to me on my Sem breaks..She told that you will look more beautiful weraring this Tudung rather than you small tudung..I was just laugh at that time..my heart want to but I think lots..What my friends say if I'm wearing that Tudung..Will they accept my change??I thought of what other people thinks rather than what my mom thinks..What Allah SWT will say..Do Prophet Muhammad SAW will accept me or not??I thinks more about what other people say..I never thought what my Creator will say..Oh ALLAH,,forgive your slave..On the next day,,I tried wearing that Tudung to lecture..All my friends smile at me and they look very happy with my changes..I took a photo and sent it to my mum..Within 5 minutes,,my mum called and cried.."I know that you will wear this one day..Thank you..I appreaciate it sooo much.."..I want to cry..My mum wants me to wear this a very long time ago..but i just can make it now..Oh Allah..what i had done to my mum??

Mama,,I promise that I will wear this tudung until my last breath..I will make you happy to have me in your life..
Thats how I ended wearing this tudung..Hopefully that all of you can pray me to be more Istiqamah in my journey to change..This is only the beginning..

The moral of the story,,make your mum,,Prophet and Allah happy..The barakah that you need to have are the barakah of your mum,,barakah of Prophet Muhammad SAW and barakah of ALLAH SWT..not other people..
This all for now..Till we meet again in another post..
Till then,,Assalamualaikum and good night!!

the new style of me!!